John audibly gulped. Was he? After everything? After parents and penance and Westchester and Alcatraz and prison and all the rest, could he believe that he was capable of happiness? That he deserved it? For a second he searched himself; yeah - he could. Things might go south: they might go terrible, and Bobby might leave him, but John wasn't about to refuse to try in the first place. (And if it did all go south, at least then it wasn't his fault.)
"Well, that's good," he managed, and swallowed again, "because I, you know, because - I have loved you since almost the time we met, and I am always going to love you, and whenever I meet someone - since the time I was fifteen, my only thought has been that this person is not as funny as you, or as kind as you, or as amazing as you. You've always seen something in me that I don't quite understand, something better than anger and ash. And considering I have always seen a wonder in you that you don't seem to understand either, the solution - to my mind - is that we keep hanging around each other until we get it. That's probably gonna be a long time because I'm pretty dense, so...."
Exhaling, he flashed Bobby an extremely nervous smile, got down on one knee, and pulled out both rings from his pocket, and finding the one with blue gemstones, offered it to Bobby between two fingers. "So what I'm asking is would you do me the honour of letting me become Mr. John Drake?" There was never any question in John's mind that Bobby would not prefer John to take his name: family was very important to Bobby, and he was a traditionalist at heart. As for Allerdyce? Well, John had had many names over the years. This one sounded cute, at least.
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Date: 2016-01-08 10:46 am (UTC)"Well, that's good," he managed, and swallowed again, "because I, you know, because - I have loved you since almost the time we met, and I am always going to love you, and whenever I meet someone - since the time I was fifteen, my only thought has been that this person is not as funny as you, or as kind as you, or as amazing as you. You've always seen something in me that I don't quite understand, something better than anger and ash. And considering I have always seen a wonder in you that you don't seem to understand either, the solution - to my mind - is that we keep hanging around each other until we get it. That's probably gonna be a long time because I'm pretty dense, so...."
Exhaling, he flashed Bobby an extremely nervous smile, got down on one knee, and pulled out both rings from his pocket, and finding the one with blue gemstones, offered it to Bobby between two fingers. "So what I'm asking is would you do me the honour of letting me become Mr. John Drake?" There was never any question in John's mind that Bobby would not prefer John to take his name: family was very important to Bobby, and he was a traditionalist at heart. As for Allerdyce? Well, John had had many names over the years. This one sounded cute, at least.